Blogger pissin' me off :/

not doin what I want it to do ! D;

Survey 2 ;

r a n d o m n e s s *

r a n d o m
if you had to feed 2O firemen, what would you give them ?: food.
what is karma to you ?: a bee.
how do you picture the end of the world ?: with Jesus.
what do you think your friends/family would say about you at your funeral ?: idk.
how old were you when you received your 1st kiss + where were you ?: 14, by the staircase.
y e s / n o
i hate pet rocks: lol.
i like suprises: sometimes.
i believe in religion: yes.
i have solved rubik`s cube: no.
i walk around while brushing my teeth: no.
i am good at improvising: no.
i think education is a priviledge: yes.
i find many things quite annoying: yes.
i save things: yes.
i am often ashamed of my thoughts: no.
i have done things in the past that i regret: yes.
i get out of bed right after waking up: no.
i have had sea monkies as pets: no.
i never finish many of the things i start: no.
i lose control during arguments: yes.
i hate being photographed: no.
t h i s / t h a t
now / later: now.
either / neither: either.
bored / stressed: both.
horizontal / vertical: vertical ;)
blind / deaf: :(
others / yourself: others. :/
email / letter: both.
! / ?: ! xD;
sun / moon: moon.
i f y o u. . .
could live anywhere in the world, where would you live ?: paris.
could visit any time period, which one would you visit ?: renaissance.
could have been born a different race, which one would you choose ?: hispanic. but i love being black.
were in prison, what would you do ?: break free.
were famous, how would your life be different ?: i'd have 5 story house & like 12 cars & spend my 80th birthday at p. diddy's club ;o
had the power to change 1 thing in the world, what would it be ?: my mom.
had a safe, what would you put in it ?: money.

f i n i s h t h e s e n t a n c e

you feel: sad.
you see: the computer.
you hear: beeping D;
you taste: tasteless gum.
you touch: the keyboard.
you love: Jalen♥
you hate: bugs.
you save: money.
you kick: walls.
you sleep: in a bed.
you always: talk.
you occasionally: dress up.
you never: really care.
you wonder: about alotta things.
you want: Jalen :'(
you lie: to my mom :/
you suffer: a lot.
you fear: bugs, God, loosing Jalen.
you enjoy: writing.
you hope: to be successful.
you underestimate: myself.
you manipulate: my grandmother.
you scream: "Hi AMANDA!"
you forget: stuff.
you suspect: you?
you distrust: haha.
you risk: life.
you maintain: patience.
you are: raven.
r a n d o m . . . s t r i k e s b a c k
what emotion would you like to slap in the face ?: happy go lucky.
what sound drives you crazy ?: THiS DARN BEEPiNG! & the misquito noise.
who is your favorite disney princess ?: Tyana (: & Belle<3
who inspire`s you to create ?: artistssss.
do you change your underwear daily ?: YES!
do you sit on public toilet seats ?: no.
what would you like your tombstone to say ?: idk.
do you realize how much time you waste on these surveys ?: yes. xD
t h e e n d

He's been ignoring me all day

Uhg. This is soooo upsetting. I'm at school & it's second block, I haven't seen or talked to him at all today. I can't believe he's not talking to me. I can't believe I actually have to avoid him like this. What kind of love is that? I know I don't need him. I know that a boy isn't everything, but he is the love of my life. It hurts sooo much to not see his face, or to kiss his lips. At first, it was me wanting to do the breaking up. & now I think he wants to. Idk what to do. He's the love of my life. I love him with all my heart. I know I should focus more on other things, like school, and work, & possible cheerleading. Btw, I still don't know if I'm able to cheer. But you don't get it. At first, I didn't care. I figured we'd be over it by this morning. But he really is avoiding me. This SUCKS. Omg, I wanna break down & cry, but apart of me says that I'm better than that. Wayyy better than that. I'm a young woman. I'm strong, I can do anything & I don't need him to complete me. Life will go on.

Now if only I can say all those things & beleive it. Gotta go.

I'm so sad.