Thursday, April 15

I'm not "dead"

I'm taking a break. I wil be back shortly, tho ;/

Tuesday, April 6

Survey 2 ;

1. First thing you wash in the shower? my face.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie? white.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? yes<3
4.Do you plan outfits? sometimes.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? sick! :'(
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? a city school handbook.
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? aim.
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? it's too long. lol
9. Did you meet anybody new today? yes? i think.
10. What are you craving right now? sleep. :/
11. Do you floss? yes.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? lettuce.
13. When was the last time you talked on aim? a long time ago, I don't use aim.
14. Are you emotional? yes.
15. Would you dance to the taco song? yes, bc I love tacos (:
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? idk. . . ?
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? lick, ew! I can't bite it. my teeth feel cold & funny. it bothers me.
18. Do you like your hair? sometimes.
19. Do you like yourself? most of the time.
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? yes.
21. Do you like cottage cheese? ew, no.
22. What are you listening to right now? people in class talking. the first one I distinguish is Jalen (:
23. How many countries have you visited? none, other than the us. & wonderland :D
24. Are your parents strict? OMG. ARE THEY. Yes, like really strict :(
25. Would you go sky diving? no!
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? no.
27. Would you throw potatoes at him? yes.
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? my pencil.
29. Have you ever been in a castle? my room is the castle bc i'm the princess (:
30. Do you rent movies often? nah.
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class? my best friend, kaysy(:
32. Have you made a prank phone call? no. . . ? idk.
33. Do you own a gun? a water gun.
34. Can you count backwards from 74? yes?
35. Who are you going to be with tonight? me, myself & i. & my bed.
36. Brown or white eggs? white.
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? nope, i'm not allowed to shop there.
38. Ever been on a train? those birthday trains (:
39. Ever been in love? currently am <3
40. Do you have a cell-phone? yes.
41. Are you too forgiving? yes. :/
42. Do you use chap stick? i be on that carmex. lol. :p
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? moaning, for sure. :p
44. Can you use chop sticks? nope.
45. Ever have cream puffs? haha.
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? hells no ?
47. What was the last question you asked? "what's that thing?"
48. What was the last CD you bought? chris brown's last cd, lol. in 2008.
49. Boys or girls? boys.
50. What is your bus number for school? 50.
51. Is your hair curly? right now is.
52. Last time you cried? this week?
53. Ever walked into a wall? yes!
54. Do looks matter? not really? idk. . .
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun? no, but i want these shoes. o-o;
56. Have you ever slapped someone? YES, & I'M ABOUT TO RIGHT NOW . . . (: ( love you, Jalen ;p]
57. Favorite time of the year? christmas.
58. Favorite color? pink(:
59. Are you sarcastic? sometimes.
60. Do you have any tattoos? nope.
61. The last person you held hands with? jalen.
62. Do you sleep with the TV on? no .
63. Where was your default picture taken at? my room .
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? yes. . .
65. Do you like your life right now? i'm alive, aren't i ?
66. How often do you talk on the phone? quite often.
67. What is your favorite animal? doggies.
68. What was the most recent thing you bought? lunch.
69. Do you have good vision? 20/15 (:
70. Can you hula hoop? yes.
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater? no :/
72. Do you have a job? no .
73. Can you handle the truth? uhg.
74. What are you wearing? clothes.
75. Have you ever crawled through a window? no.

Monday, April 5

Set my clocks early, cus ya know I'm always late(:

Okay so on Friday, when I was blogging & sitting next to my boyfriend, I was actually sitting in his lap. Nothing bad or anything, he had his arm around me & it was practically a lovey dovey sweet thing. So the chick sitting behind me starts throwing paper balls at me. & I look around & I'm like "What's wrong with you?!" & she goes "Get off his lap, you nasty hoe!" & OMG. I'm not the one to be in any kind of drama. But she (& A LOT of other people) take my kindness for weakness. They assume because I'm so nice, & happy that they can treat/talk to me any kind of way. I was sooo ready to snatch her hair. It was so immature, I don't know this girl, I don't talk to this girl...I was going to hurt her. :/

But, Jalen held me down & he made me calm down before speaking. But I was really mad.

Every time I think about it, I get pissed. I mean, who does stuff like that?

In other news, I cleaned my room. Well, I pretty much purged it. I started at around 12:30 after we just came from church & didn't finish until about 10:30 that night. On top of that, I have two assignments to complete, & a research paper & I'm still not done with my room.

On Saturday, mommy & I went shopping. I did really well. I only spent $45. (: Also, I'm looking to give some of the things I emptied out of my room to some local thrift stores. I have every Seventeen issue from the past two years, some lucky teenager is going to be happy. Lol.

At Target, I got two lovely new journals. Um, I have nothing else to blog about. Please comment.<3

I'll be back later. Peace.

Btw, Happy Easter(:

Friday, April 2

We made up.

But there are a lot of things I need to start thinking about other than just Jalen. Like my mom says I spend too much time worrying about other things than just myself. Well imaginary people inside my head that I assume read this blog: how can I fix this. . .its like I go too far out my way, as my mom says "in order for people to like me". & I have a hard time accepting that. But, she says its the truth. & you know what they say, Mama knows best.

I love Jalen with all my heart, he's the best thing to ever happen to me, as any young teenager. But there are a lot better things I could be doing. Oh, I found out I'm unable to do cheer :'/. I was so sad & disappointed. I'm actually sitting next to him, right now, in 4th block. He's harassing his friend. He's so silly. Little things like that make my day. (Like, right now, he can't tie a shoe :P) He's the most adorable thing in the world to me. "How you doin', sweety?" Hehe.

Well, I guess I'll take my time, one day at a time, ya know. Well, I'll be on my way. Peace.

Blogger pissin' me off :/

not doin what I want it to do ! D;

Thursday, April 1

Survey 2 ;

r a n d o m n e s s *

r a n d o m

if you had to feed 2O firemen, what would you give them ?: food.
what is karma to you ?: a bee.
how do you picture the end of the world ?: with Jesus.
what do you think your friends/family would say about you at your funeral ?: idk.
how old were you when you received your 1st kiss + where were you ?: 14, by the staircase.
y e s / n o

i hate pet rocks: lol.
i like suprises: sometimes.
i believe in religion: yes.
i have solved rubik`s cube: no.
i walk around while brushing my teeth: no.
i am good at improvising: no.
i think education is a priviledge: yes.
i find many things quite annoying: yes.
i save things: yes.
i am often ashamed of my thoughts: no.
i have done things in the past that i regret: yes.
i get out of bed right after waking up: no.
i have had sea monkies as pets: no.
i never finish many of the things i start: no.
i lose control during arguments: yes.
i hate being photographed: no.
t h i s / t h a t

now / later: now.
either / neither: either.
bored / stressed: both.
horizontal / vertical: vertical ;)
blind / deaf: :(
others / yourself: others. :/
email / letter: both.
! / ?: ! xD;
sun / moon: moon.
i f y o u. . .

could live anywhere in the world, where would you live ?: paris.
could visit any time period, which one would you visit ?: renaissance.
could have been born a different race, which one would you choose ?: hispanic. but i love being black.
were in prison, what would you do ?: break free.
were famous, how would your life be different ?: i'd have 5 story house & like 12 cars & spend my 80th birthday at p. diddy's club ;o
had the power to change 1 thing in the world, what would it be ?: my mom.
had a safe, what would you put in it ?: money.

f i n i s h t h e s e n t a n c e

you feel: sad.
you see: the computer.
you hear: beeping D;
you taste: tasteless gum.
you touch: the keyboard.
you love: Jalen♥
you hate: bugs.
you save: money.
you kick: walls.
you sleep: in a bed.
you always: talk.
you occasionally: dress up.
you never: really care.
you wonder: about alotta things.
you want: Jalen :'(
you lie: to my mom :/
you suffer: a lot.
you fear: bugs, God, loosing Jalen.
you enjoy: writing.
you hope: to be successful.
you underestimate: myself.
you manipulate: my grandmother.
you scream: "Hi AMANDA!"
you forget: stuff.
you suspect: you?
you distrust: haha.
you risk: life.
you maintain: patience.
you are: raven.
r a n d o m . . . s t r i k e s b a c k

what emotion would you like to slap in the face ?: happy go lucky.
what sound drives you crazy ?: THiS DARN BEEPiNG! & the misquito noise.
who is your favorite disney princess ?: Tyana (: & Belle<3
who inspire`s you to create ?: artistssss.
do you change your underwear daily ?: YES!
do you sit on public toilet seats ?: no.
what would you like your tombstone to say ?: idk.
do you realize how much time you waste on these surveys ?: yes. xD
t h e e n d

He's been ignoring me all day

Uhg. This is soooo upsetting. I'm at school & it's second block, I haven't seen or talked to him at all today. I can't believe he's not talking to me. I can't believe I actually have to avoid him like this. What kind of love is that? I know I don't need him. I know that a boy isn't everything, but he is the love of my life. It hurts sooo much to not see his face, or to kiss his lips. At first, it was me wanting to do the breaking up. & now I think he wants to. Idk what to do. He's the love of my life. I love him with all my heart. I know I should focus more on other things, like school, and work, & possible cheerleading. Btw, I still don't know if I'm able to cheer. But you don't get it. At first, I didn't care. I figured we'd be over it by this morning. But he really is avoiding me. This SUCKS. Omg, I wanna break down & cry, but apart of me says that I'm better than that. Wayyy better than that. I'm a young woman. I'm strong, I can do anything & I don't need him to complete me. Life will go on.

Now if only I can say all those things & beleive it. Gotta go.

I'm so sad.